Will it ever get easier?

Every time I start to feel like I am moving on, I have a really bad day or week where I am angry, hurt, sad and frustrated. I sit and wonder, when will this get easier? When will I not be angry anymore? When will I stop wondering, what happened? I just want to be happy again. I want to feel like myself again. I want to wake up in the morning and not have to think about my marriage ending and question myself. I want to go through one entire day without thinking about him. I want to have one day where I don't get angry at my kids for no reason at all. When will he not have this power over me anymore?

Everyday I try to be positive. I always try and tell myself that my life is not really all that bad. It could be worse. Some days are easier than others. I have days when I feel so overwhelmed all I want to do is crawl into my bed, go to sleep and not wake up for a few days. I hate this standstill my life is in right now. I am so ready to take many steps forward but everything is just up in the air.

I know in my heart this is the path I was intended to follow and that it will get easier and I will be a better person but WHEN???